I have been crying like a baby, literally. I'm facing this stupid love life problem and it affects my friendships. Then I've been sharing a lot, with tears held. I tried to be strong, but I just couldn't.
I know, I kept on being so selfish. I blamed them, when there were actually no one should be.
And finally, a person enlighten me. She is right. I only cared about how I felt without thinking why it happened. She had made me realized what made everything turn this way. Yes, it's no one else but me myself. I blundered, I messed things up, I ruined everything. Thus, I deserve all these pain and hatred.
All these time, I haven't been good enough. I do think about how my best friends would feel about me, but I didn't do it well. I still hurt them. And now, one has been very disappointed in me. I know, my apologize won't be enough to pay anything, but I am really sorry.
Sigh. I don't know why I have a different point of view with a lot of people. Is it wrong when you do what you think is right, but is wrong in others' eyes? Is it wrong if you couldn't be what others want you to be? Is it wrong if you couldn't have the same feeling like others have in you? Is it wrong to expect more?
I am typing this whilst crying. I don't know if it happens to anyone reading my blog. But if I publish this post, will it be another mistake? If I change and be a better person now, will it be too late? If I end everything, will it be another regrets?
it's all my bad
xx
4 comments:
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Hey there. It's not bad having a different point of view with others. True it is might we be wrong with the decision we take and worsen it sometimes. But i guess making decision is just part of growing up, isn't that so? I've a short comparative story, so here goes : there's a man aged 25, one day he makes a decision that end up in a very fatal mistake for the company. So his boss come up to him and says "Don't be too drown in it." "I would rather make a decision and heed a lesson from it at your age, i'm 40 and can you imagine how people will judge me for doing that mistake?"
So just keep doing what you think is right, if it's wrong be thankful that you do that in a young age. It's impossible to climb mountain without rocks along the way. Roses never grow without any thorns. Hey! i couldn't believe i type those nice words. Hahaha. Ohhh i leave comment at your article "things i should change" too. Well, got to go now, thanks for reading this bad writing of mine. Have a nice day! Yay!
okk emia. will do :D thank youu
Dear Man Of Nowhere,
that's really a very very sweet of you. Thank you so much for the comment you left. Sorry I haven't written back to you :(
I'm doing what I think is right. Yes. You are a good writer anyway :D I wish you were not an anonymous man of nowhere. hehehehe
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